An Update of Sorts

He'd kill me if he knew I posted this :-)

He’d kill me if he knew I posted this :-)

In a phrase, I’m surviving. The heat has been making life difficult, and we’ve had a couple speed bumps this past month. For the second year in a row, our air conditioner gave out just as it was heating up. The repair man couldn’t get out to us until the next day, so I had to stay home and wait in the heat for him to come fix it. And of course he needed parts he didn’t have to fix it, so he had go track them down and get approval from the insurance to purchase them. All told, it didn’t get fixed until late that afternoon when it had already heated up to pretty much unbearable temperatures inside.

Needless to say, I had a migraine that day. And it lasted for four days.

The a/c in our car has been acting up as well. We have to be doing freeway speeds for it to kick in, or it just blows hot. About half of our commute home is side streets, so this has been a problem. We’re hopefully getting it fixed on Wednesday, but there’s no telling how much it is going to cost so of course that has both of us worried.

All the stress isn’t good for me either, so I’ve been having more panic attacks. There is a chance I might be pregnant, so I’ve been avoiding taking my medication, and to be honest I’m not coping well. I have an appointment to see my psychiatrist in a couple of weeks, so hopefully he will be able to help me deal without using medication.

I’m sorry my posting has been infrequent, I’m just not feeling it lately.

Down, but not out

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I can’t get in to see the neurologist until July 22nd, which means I will be without a control medication until at least then. Needless to say, I’m concerned especially since the heat is a particularly gnarly trigger for me. I’m not looking forward to the next month, needless to say.

The good news is, I also finally found an allergist and they can see me on July 2nd, so hopefully getting my allergies under control will help with the severity and duration of the migraines. I’ve noticed in the past that when I’m taking something for my allergies the migraines don’t last as long, and the symptoms that accompany a migraine aren’t quite as debilitating for me. So not the complete relief I need, but I’m trying my hardest to remain positive through this. I hate relying on my emergency pills for my migraines, but I don’t have much of a choice until I can get into see the neurologist.

And of course my head starts pounding as I’m writing this. Goodnight :-)

I have decided…

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A mix of personal and “non-personal” blogging is probably going to be best for me.

I went to my doctor today, and I left feeling even more hopeless than when I walked into the office. My migraine medication has been giving me problems, so my doctor told me to stop taking it. Today, she told me she wants me to go see a neurologist, which means I will be off my control medication until I am able to get into see a neurologist. I’ve been off it for just under two weeks and I’ve already gone through all of my emergency pills. And I’m not sure when I’ll be able to get in to see a neurologist.

A crossroads of sorts

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Ordered wedding invitations this weekend, they should be sent out in the next couple of weeks. Squee! The one pictured above is a sample of the actual invitations, so no that is not my actual address. I can’t believe its already time to start mailing out invitations for MY WEDDING. I took my best friend to where we are getting married yesterday. Since I’m not really going to have a “wedding party” she is stepping up and taking over the traditional “maid of honor” duties. I can’t even begin to fathom where I would be without her, but I suspect a corner and me in the fetal position would be part of the equation. I don’t do planning well. Or decorating. Or getting what I want out of people. Or asking for help when I need it. And she is really good at all of those things. Have I mentioned how awesome she is?

I’ve been thinking over the last week where I want to go with this blog. Personal blogging is easy and doesn’t really stretch my writing muscles. But honestly, between working, trying to start a family, and planning the wedding, I don’t really want to do much else. But I feel like I’m stagnating. I love this blog, I don’t want to let it go. Writing of any kind helps me focus, which helps with my mental issues. But I hate having it sit here doing nothing while I figure out where to go.

So I guess the next place to go is to you, my readers, for inspiration. And please don’t say whatever makes meĀ happy. As much as I appreciate the sentiment behind saying that, it doesn’t help me personally. What would you like to read from me? If you’ve read me for any length of time, you’ve seen both sides from me, so what works best for you?